Who are you truly? What has been the biggest factor in your shaping to date? When people say the phrase: “be yourself” what do they truly mean and is that even possible with so much to influence us? We are the constructs of so much information, we are made by those things that colour and saturate our growth process. If there is a part of you inside the chances are that is it lost amongst layers upon layers of external input. Very rarely do we show the world who we truly are and that in itself may just be the most difficult things in the world to do. I know that there are parts of me I choose to hide for whatever reasons and on the flip side there are parts of me that shine through that are as a result of those things that have penetrated my being and have made me act in a very specific way.
Just as there was that DVD called: What the bleep do we know? I think there should be a new one called ‘Who the bleep are we?’ I may be challenged for saying this but I believe that very few people actually know themselves and I for one am one of those. Everyday is a growing process and at the same time I’m taking on information and behaviours that are ultimately deciding what actions I will take from one moment to the next. However there is a part of me that wants that sponginess to stop. We are all sponges, soaking up our environments. Most of the times we have to be sponges because there is so much to learn in this day and age that every day becomes a university. I want that part of the sponge to remain open for business but I want the part of me the chooses what actions I take and the personality that I emit to be a more like a rock than a sponge. I want to choose a pattern of behaviour that is what I decided to be in accordance with the belief systems that I have decided best reflects what I believe the universe is about and accurately reflects the purpose I have created for myself.
This is a very challenging time for me with the treatment that I am having. Who I was 4 weeks ago is very different than the person I am today and the hurdles before me seem very high although I am sure they are not. But despite those hurdles I will take that fight to my very core. It’s not a fight of violence, but a fight of love whereby I must find a way of accepting these new facets of who I am and integrate them into the person I wish to ultimately shape myself into. I am no different from anyone else. Everyone faces those challenges on a daily basis and the process of discovery of the person who you are or have chosen to be deep down, must be faced with love and your held high! Whether you see that inner person with an exact avatar or whether you decide that, that person will be someone new on a daily basis, do it with a sense of pure acceptance of you. You will change, you will adapt, your purpose will change, your desires will change, you ideal self will change, but change is a sponge, waiting to be immersed in a bucket of water.